So after my mini breakdown last week, well the one the straw that broke the camels back, I reached out to my PCP to schedule some time.
Luckily, she’s been my doctor for about 8-9 years, so she’s been there through my abusive ex, my first bout with depression, birthing my daughter, etc. I’m happy to have someone who already has knowledge of my past. After our talk, she prescribed me depression/anxiety medicine and medicine to help with my insomnia, which of course is I n correlation with my anxiety. We’re also looking for a new therapist. Normally, I am not an advocate for medicine, and I prefer natural resolutions, but at this point in my life, I’m very cognizant of the fact that I need help, and if this is what I need for the time being, I’m willing to do it. My first priority is Kennedy and being the best mom I can be. Between work, and my anger, and anxiety and failure fears etc. it’s getting harder to keep a lid on everything and trying to stay sane. So I’m hoping this helps, with what I’d like to do already on my own.
For myself, I most definitely need to take a break from drinking, especially without knowing how it’ll affect me while taking this medicine. I want to be consistent with my fitness and diet. I know that’s helped me before in the past with getting my depression under control, so I’m hoping coupling that with these medicine, minus the alcohol will have a stronger/healthier impact.