Sooooo in the midst of a pandemic, I’ve attempted to make the best of my resources and put into action some things I’ve wanted to do for a while now. That includes finally launching my online children’s boutique, https://KennedysKloset.co, and once again working on my blogger brand.
I’ve been going crazy on quarantine, literally. I’ve taken some time off work because my anxiety and depression has literally been off the charts. This coupled with insomnia, has been the hardest ever to handle. The physicians said I was having an episode. I was finally able to get in and talk to a therapist, after being on the waitlist for months, thank god. It’s crazy how expensive it is to actually get help. You have to first meet your deductible, then the OOP is ridiculous. Insurance is bullshit in the US. It also sheds light on why the black community may have more difficult reaching out for help. Yes, mental health is joked about in our community, but even when we have access, the resources are still sometimes out of our hands. It sucks ass.
They’ve given me medicine, and it’s been helping. I’d love to find alternative methods, but my brain never shuts up long enough to allow me to meditate or practice yoga. I’m definitely looking though, and hope I stumble upon some help soon.
On the some positive shit tho! I’ve been looking for work that is less stressful than what I’m currently doing, but still in the same field. I think I’ve gotten a few good leads, so fingers crossed. I’ve launched my store, and I know it’s a lot of work ahead, marketing, building a customer base and whatnot. I’m nervous and scared as hell. I hate social media, so this is forcing me to be active and I’m not a marketing genius, but I’m willing to try. I have to. I’m going to learn as much as possible, because failing isn’t an option. I need to decide my daughters future, and try to prevent some of the bullshit I went through in life from occurring with her.
Wish me luck yaw !